letter to 10 year old self

hey guys,
so its going to be 1 am now and im blogging from my phone because my laptop died. can't charge because charging port is broken. so im not going to care about my capital letters because i cannot be bothered to push the shift button on my phone.

so i saw this thing going around on facebook about writing a letter to your 10 year old self, i found it interesting, so here is mine.

dear cyrus,
you are know as davis now but you won't like the name once u reach sec sch, so you changed your name to cyrus because u can. at the age of 10, you should already be notorious in sch as the kid who doesn't do homework. No matter, keep ignoring them! if fact you will spend all this time improving your english by watching documentaries by Sir David Attenborough. your teacher will look down on you as an irresponsible student, she is going to not give u a position in the class hydroponics project, but don't worry, she is the only fucked up teacher you will encounter. you will be spending a lot of time in the corridoors of JPS because you never did your homework, no worries when you become a loner in primary sch, the solitude makes you stronger than others emotionally, next year you will find a girl you like, she won't want your company, you are too young. PSLE was disappointing, but you would be happy to know Huayi will be a place where you get to know how awesome you will be. You will learn that leadership is not about being the best but knowing how to serve. Servant leadership, big words for a 10 year old.
In Hua Yi, you will find a girl whom will occupy your mind for the whole of 4 years and you will end this friendship with a heartbreak, get over it, cry if you have to, don't have to tell the world because people don't like it. You will still not do homework but its not important any more isn't it. DnT will be your forte and you will be able to grasp mechanical concepts with ease.
You will get into a poly of your choice and you will feel awesome about it. Soon you realise you don't have to be alone any more. You will find awesome friends and will shine like never before. You will reach the top through your tenacity but there are many disappointments with those whom you look up to. Don't listen to those whom you look up to, they are not worth your time. you will get into your first relationship which lasts for 3 days and you will only get to see her for 1 day out of that 3. You will cry but you'll get over it. I trust u would because you always get over it don't you. Remember, if you feel that something will work out, it will work out. don't worry you got this.

regards,
The 19 year old you.

Always before Exams

So here I am 2 weeks before my final papers in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Blogging. Just did a revamp of my blog's very overdue look. I think i've had the previous blog look for a good 4 years or longer. So, what am I doing here today? Well, I always come back when I have things on my mind to rant, to nobody in particular but just want someone to know.

Today I went to celebrate my friend's birthday. Its all fun and awesome and very entertaining, although i think  this day could be used for studying considering the fact that exams are very close, but for this dear friend of mine, its all worth it. So after the little amazing race for the birthday girl, I walked over to the MRT station with her and her boyfriend. I exclaimed to myself, 'Wah sian, kena lightbulb', her boyfriend, also my good friend, asked me, 'So Cyrus, when will i become your lightbulb?'

This question kinda hit me like a train. *Boom* so, why am I still single? because I don't have the looks and I know that myself. I can only tell that I am a nice guy. It all boils down to my looks. No matter what people say, looks will always matter. Don't listen to those who say that appearance don't matter, because biologically, they are programmed to reject those with undesirable features. This is natural selection, there is no other way around it. Sucks to be me.

Then, I thought about the girls that I am close to, I realised that I'm a guy who has a lot of female friends, but all of them would always be some ways short of a relationship. Being close to girls mainly brings my singlehood to new pains of a different level. Imagine always hearing stories about how much they like another guy but that guy is an asshole of many varying degrees. I mean its fine to be an asshole normally, but being an asshole to a girl who likes you and the girl is still madly in love with that asshole is just... LOL I don't know what to comment uh. The shitstorm starts to brew when these girls come to me to complain on what and how an asshole has hurt them so badly and next week coming to tell me that she is still madly in love with the guy. Dafaq LOL! Its like I will never understand this thinking I mean seriously. From a friends' standpoint, please don't put yourselves through this kind of ordeal already. Its sickening to hear of such people who exists. From a guy's standpoint, wtf are you still doing with that guy? I will never understand.

Now I'm done with the previous topic. Time to bring on another topic. As some of you may know, I am born in China and some part of me still feels offended when Singaporeans have all these hurtful comments about Chinese immigrants who come to Singapore for work. Don't get me wrong, I am a Singaporean Citizen and I don't really like the habit these people have considering the fact that I came here when i was 2 years old. I guess it still hurts me when they scold the Chinese people in general. Speaking of Chinese imports. You want to know why Singaporean athletes are mostly from China? Think about this, if you have a kid who plays table tennis 10 hours a day and not studying, what would you do? Its Singapore's society you see, If you don't get academic results, you cannot feed yourself enough to have hobbies. So if you are not going to have people who practices these sports since young because they have to study, how are you going to get athletes that can win medals for you??? 

Well my thoughts have all been drained out. So I shall end here then.

Here is to the ones who never got a chance to perform because of being less good looking than others.
Here is to the ones who worked hard to get what you have now without being reliant of looks.