Keep yourself together Cyrus... You will need it...

Dinner with my awesome sub-comm members. Damn full hahahas. Its been long since i last saw them all together.

This feeling is irritating, you are not supposed to feel anything but you are still feeling it. you want to know how the person is doing and you hand itchy to go see see... don't like what you see and you become sian the whole day... oh well... time to come out of this pit Cyrus, don't be stuck in there forever, there is nothing down there according to the person, trust those words and never look back down.

I'll still care about others... but maybe not as much. hehheh, only those who are important to me.

Ciaos

Close call

Never knew this would happen in poly but yes... it happened, epic diao zui, First time in such a situation. Shall not go into the details. Things i have learnt today is that:

1. All things can all be talked out.

2. Freshie and GL interaction can be compared to taking out a dick and showing to the sister.

3. Unreasonable words can appear reasonable to some.

4. Sister spelt backwords is you don't fuck around with my sister.

5. My family is always there for me, even if i don't really talk to some of them. (some of them i never even see before)

6. I shouldn't care about other people because care is the reason why i got into trouble in the first place.

7. Not proud of what happened, but at least nobody got hurt.

I'm still the guy who always forgive and forgets. As long as i have a place to vent them out once. I'm not going to blame the guy in question but i do fear for his future. Where did the respect go? Today did not have to happen if he changed his tone. I mean if you are asking a favour, don't start it with a fucker. seriously.

I guess im born in an age too late. My values, my way of caring, my kind of people, they don't really exist. I'm born in a wrong age. Things were easier back then. No handphones, no internet. not really a care was given to people outside of your friend circle.

To end it off... All i can say is. Too much of a fuck is given to people, nobody in this age cares as much and i should just not care about people. Easier said than done.

P.S. i have never felt more touched in my life before. Thanks Keane, Thanks mannan, Thanks Jen, Thanks Alex, Thank everyone who was there. I really love you guys alot alot.

Hi, I'm back

Its been decades since i last posted stuff here... Ok maybe not decades, but still its a long time.

Much has happened in the past few months i've been missing from the blogsphere. And when i said MUCH it really meant OMGWTFBBQ-DAMN-ALOT-MUCH.

Yeap, FOC is over. That means YES i've finally gone through the whole freshie to GL experience. never the less it has made me grow so much from that basement dweller before i started Poly. Year 2 now. Studies, still not picking up, guess im the slack off too much kind of guy! hehheh.

The freshies from FOC, DAMN ADORABLE, not kidding! hahahas. reminds me of apollomighty, a bunch of lost kids XD. Spent many evenings with them, some are tall, some are short, some are pretty, some are adorable. Its nice to see that they are still meeting up even tho its been 4 months since they met and still going strong.

And in these few months, things happened, got into a relationship for a few days and it ended. so nothing much to say about it, what should have been said has already been said, i can only say it did not end badly so no worries.

Challengers ended too, had my first close encounter with the 3rd kind. Not a funny experience but still, it was scary shit and i learnt stuff from that too. got the nickname Kung-Fu Panda, haha i like it, has a nice ring to it

So what made me come back to this freaking dusty piece of html coding? The thing is many things happen, disappointments; conflicts; depressing news. A part of me is telling me to just throw everything away, leave it and go back to my once perfect world, everything was controllable, anime, games and more anime. I didn't have to spoil my brain thinking over so much stuff. The thing that is really keeping me going is the want to keep the legacy going for SU. I have this intense need to keep things going, no matter how bad the situation becomes. Things are getting lonely. But i'll push on for the freshies, to have someone to look up to, to be inspired by. Not going to back down on SU, SU was my life, SU still is my life and it will still be! SO! i came back to this html coding to tell you all of this emotions that is kept inside of me.

And that shall be all...