Always before Exams

So here I am 2 weeks before my final papers in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Blogging. Just did a revamp of my blog's very overdue look. I think i've had the previous blog look for a good 4 years or longer. So, what am I doing here today? Well, I always come back when I have things on my mind to rant, to nobody in particular but just want someone to know.

Today I went to celebrate my friend's birthday. Its all fun and awesome and very entertaining, although i think  this day could be used for studying considering the fact that exams are very close, but for this dear friend of mine, its all worth it. So after the little amazing race for the birthday girl, I walked over to the MRT station with her and her boyfriend. I exclaimed to myself, 'Wah sian, kena lightbulb', her boyfriend, also my good friend, asked me, 'So Cyrus, when will i become your lightbulb?'

This question kinda hit me like a train. *Boom* so, why am I still single? because I don't have the looks and I know that myself. I can only tell that I am a nice guy. It all boils down to my looks. No matter what people say, looks will always matter. Don't listen to those who say that appearance don't matter, because biologically, they are programmed to reject those with undesirable features. This is natural selection, there is no other way around it. Sucks to be me.

Then, I thought about the girls that I am close to, I realised that I'm a guy who has a lot of female friends, but all of them would always be some ways short of a relationship. Being close to girls mainly brings my singlehood to new pains of a different level. Imagine always hearing stories about how much they like another guy but that guy is an asshole of many varying degrees. I mean its fine to be an asshole normally, but being an asshole to a girl who likes you and the girl is still madly in love with that asshole is just... LOL I don't know what to comment uh. The shitstorm starts to brew when these girls come to me to complain on what and how an asshole has hurt them so badly and next week coming to tell me that she is still madly in love with the guy. Dafaq LOL! Its like I will never understand this thinking I mean seriously. From a friends' standpoint, please don't put yourselves through this kind of ordeal already. Its sickening to hear of such people who exists. From a guy's standpoint, wtf are you still doing with that guy? I will never understand.

Now I'm done with the previous topic. Time to bring on another topic. As some of you may know, I am born in China and some part of me still feels offended when Singaporeans have all these hurtful comments about Chinese immigrants who come to Singapore for work. Don't get me wrong, I am a Singaporean Citizen and I don't really like the habit these people have considering the fact that I came here when i was 2 years old. I guess it still hurts me when they scold the Chinese people in general. Speaking of Chinese imports. You want to know why Singaporean athletes are mostly from China? Think about this, if you have a kid who plays table tennis 10 hours a day and not studying, what would you do? Its Singapore's society you see, If you don't get academic results, you cannot feed yourself enough to have hobbies. So if you are not going to have people who practices these sports since young because they have to study, how are you going to get athletes that can win medals for you??? 

Well my thoughts have all been drained out. So I shall end here then.

Here is to the ones who never got a chance to perform because of being less good looking than others.
Here is to the ones who worked hard to get what you have now without being reliant of looks.