recent feelings

haiz... it is quite late now coz tml have the first combined rehearsal for NDP... so freaking tired now...

actually i am not tired... it is just that i noticed something recently... i dun have those kind of friends who are always beside me and have fun wif me de... not even someone to eat with during recess... -_- haiz... sad lah...

maybe it is because i have always been accompanied by rly good friends throughtout my schooling years... there is
JunHong at primary 1(he transfered out...)
ZhenXin from primary 2 to 4
senneth and shamir from primary 4 to 6...

and then from sec 1 there was none... i also dunno why maybe it is bacause i took a different approach to friends? i used to only talk to one person in class only... which results in what kohser said about me being 'emo emo de' during primary school... den sec 1 kena influenced by matilda and parveen... became more open towards people le...

hahaz like mr ngian has said... you can be 2 types of people... one is being an expert a narrow field or being a novice in a wide field... i guess i am the second one... lolz

as i was saying... if you would observe dduring recess, i would eat alone or maybe just sit with someone whom i never talk before... or just sit with primary school mates whom i never talk to at all in primary school de.. you see the thing is that i dun really feel that school is a fun place anymore... althought i am the wad CEO lah blah blah blah, i constantly feel alone maybe it is just me but i feel that i am always... how to say roaming alone from people to people... no one really notices me... LOL maybe i attention seeker or wadever... actually beyond my skin of being a person who jokes lah... inside is empty de... haiz

maybe all these years from sec 1 bahx... the dude closes to me is lucas... man he is one great guy who does rly become angry... even thought i whack hom sumtime for fun lol..

haiz...

anyway most people say i flirt wif girls... actually the truth is... the idea of fun between girls and boys are different... girls sit together talk rubbish, joke around is really fun. but to boys is like disiao people 'taupok' ppl is fun ( you know who i talking about) lolz... see arh... lidat is really no fun you know... ok lah boys like adrenline pumping lah... but sometime sit down talk crap also fun de mah... haiz...

omgzz... late liaoz... got to go...