Such is life.

I guess not all things in life goes smooth.

When such events in life affects the ones I'm close to, i get strongly affected by it.
The little girl who couldn't let go

The sweet couple that never got together

The small girl who is lost at what to do

The guy who did not want to lose a friend

The girl who is too scared to trust anyone

The girl who is tired of everything

The guy who got rejected

The girl who was afraid of it all

Mind you all of the above are issues which my friends are going through.

And after knowing all of their problems, you can't help but realise you cannot do anything for them except lending them a listening ear and giving them all the support you can muster.

Damn, i need a job.

Well. This is it!

Well I can't sleep. So here is some random pieces of thoughts presented by Cyrus =D

First thing, removed my song... abit irritating already.

So in another 7 hours I'll be taking my last paper for Year 2 of my poly education. Its been so fast its like a blur. I still have the feeling like I'm fresh in this school. I guess its too fast for me. The previous 2 years has been fulfilling. I can't say I've done well for school, but at least I'm content with it.

Its 2am now. There are people mugging for their exam paper tomorrow and other stuff. I'm here writing this post slightly high from sugar rush with Teen Titans theme song playing in the background. I have no idea why Im blogging but I've just got the feel to do so. I haven't really went out for the past week except on Friday where i went to scape with Chloe to chase her Noah Yap. well its been long since we last met up so i guess its Okay. I'm trying to recall what i did in the weekends, nothing comes except studying.

Here's my little friend who made me go to *Scape at 10pm.

Anyway visit her blog : http://vanity-dolls.blogspot.com

So soon my dear freshies will end their year 1 days. Haha they will definitely miss this period of time. from the bottom of my heart i wish them well. ^_^

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM~ in 7 hours LOL

Im stuck.

This is probably the place where I can truly say out all that is bothering me.

I'm stuck in a rut, just stuck. This wave of negative feelings, I can't really pinpoint why. This feeling of being rejected and dejected and things aren't really going your way. That feeling where you wish you are not having this situation and just want to give up on everything. Where all you see are the other people having fun and joy while you feeling left out. I guess it’s something that I'll never get over. How things happened this way and things not being this way. The unjust and lies behind reasons you cannot comprehend. This sense of guilt and jealousy is killing. I can just sit there and smile because of all that is happening and realizing that the next moment this all has nothing to do with me. I guess this used to mean too much for me. It all just fades into my mind at where my imagination is. I can only imagine for it will never become true for me. I should move on. I couldn't.

People around me, it’s hard to decide who is trustworthy, who isn't. People change too and they drift away too, along with your securities, your faith, your trust and your humanity. I’m losing it. I put too much believe into everyone. I have no one but myself to blame. All seems lost. Yes, I am lost. I am lost in the seas of my imaginations; I am lost in the sands of time. I do not know what I am going to do, where I am going or how I am supposed to look forward to everything. I cannot afford to trust people anymore; it has always been a disappointment to me. I know who to trust, I just do not dare at all. I feel broken. All that self-esteem, washed down the drain, lost forever.

My mom asked me today,
“Why do you not have a girlfriend yet?”
My answer was a simple I don't know.
I’m not good looking, I’m not fit. I do not have the personality that attracts the ladies. I’m just… Good hearted? I don’t know. I’m not a bad person, I myself know that. I had no intention for anyone to be hurt. I feel that in this world, looks over every other thing. You can be a jerk and still have a girlfriend who loves you enough to give up all the time for you as long as you look good. I guess it all comes down to instincts. It’s evolutions’ fault that I am not getting a girl. Oh well, Suck thumb die! My studies are neither here nor there. Not failing papers, not getting ‘A’s and ‘B’s. No drive for learning things. My passion for student union is fading also. I’ve lost my calling in life. I feel like I have lost everything.

It sucks to care for the ones whom I care about. I’ll always be their last resort. Last. Resort.

I guess the reason why I posted this here was because I wanted someone to know. But I don't know who to tell it to.

Keep yourself together Cyrus... You will need it...

Dinner with my awesome sub-comm members. Damn full hahahas. Its been long since i last saw them all together.

This feeling is irritating, you are not supposed to feel anything but you are still feeling it. you want to know how the person is doing and you hand itchy to go see see... don't like what you see and you become sian the whole day... oh well... time to come out of this pit Cyrus, don't be stuck in there forever, there is nothing down there according to the person, trust those words and never look back down.

I'll still care about others... but maybe not as much. hehheh, only those who are important to me.

Ciaos

Close call

Never knew this would happen in poly but yes... it happened, epic diao zui, First time in such a situation. Shall not go into the details. Things i have learnt today is that:

1. All things can all be talked out.

2. Freshie and GL interaction can be compared to taking out a dick and showing to the sister.

3. Unreasonable words can appear reasonable to some.

4. Sister spelt backwords is you don't fuck around with my sister.

5. My family is always there for me, even if i don't really talk to some of them. (some of them i never even see before)

6. I shouldn't care about other people because care is the reason why i got into trouble in the first place.

7. Not proud of what happened, but at least nobody got hurt.

I'm still the guy who always forgive and forgets. As long as i have a place to vent them out once. I'm not going to blame the guy in question but i do fear for his future. Where did the respect go? Today did not have to happen if he changed his tone. I mean if you are asking a favour, don't start it with a fucker. seriously.

I guess im born in an age too late. My values, my way of caring, my kind of people, they don't really exist. I'm born in a wrong age. Things were easier back then. No handphones, no internet. not really a care was given to people outside of your friend circle.

To end it off... All i can say is. Too much of a fuck is given to people, nobody in this age cares as much and i should just not care about people. Easier said than done.

P.S. i have never felt more touched in my life before. Thanks Keane, Thanks mannan, Thanks Jen, Thanks Alex, Thank everyone who was there. I really love you guys alot alot.

Hi, I'm back

Its been decades since i last posted stuff here... Ok maybe not decades, but still its a long time.

Much has happened in the past few months i've been missing from the blogsphere. And when i said MUCH it really meant OMGWTFBBQ-DAMN-ALOT-MUCH.

Yeap, FOC is over. That means YES i've finally gone through the whole freshie to GL experience. never the less it has made me grow so much from that basement dweller before i started Poly. Year 2 now. Studies, still not picking up, guess im the slack off too much kind of guy! hehheh.

The freshies from FOC, DAMN ADORABLE, not kidding! hahahas. reminds me of apollomighty, a bunch of lost kids XD. Spent many evenings with them, some are tall, some are short, some are pretty, some are adorable. Its nice to see that they are still meeting up even tho its been 4 months since they met and still going strong.

And in these few months, things happened, got into a relationship for a few days and it ended. so nothing much to say about it, what should have been said has already been said, i can only say it did not end badly so no worries.

Challengers ended too, had my first close encounter with the 3rd kind. Not a funny experience but still, it was scary shit and i learnt stuff from that too. got the nickname Kung-Fu Panda, haha i like it, has a nice ring to it

So what made me come back to this freaking dusty piece of html coding? The thing is many things happen, disappointments; conflicts; depressing news. A part of me is telling me to just throw everything away, leave it and go back to my once perfect world, everything was controllable, anime, games and more anime. I didn't have to spoil my brain thinking over so much stuff. The thing that is really keeping me going is the want to keep the legacy going for SU. I have this intense need to keep things going, no matter how bad the situation becomes. Things are getting lonely. But i'll push on for the freshies, to have someone to look up to, to be inspired by. Not going to back down on SU, SU was my life, SU still is my life and it will still be! SO! i came back to this html coding to tell you all of this emotions that is kept inside of me.

And that shall be all...

eh guys ps please ignore my previous question is was an misfire i threw the question to everyone on my list... PS much

eh guys ps please ignore my previous question is was an misfire i threw the question to everyone on my list... PS much

Answer here

Aiya... exposed liao >.<

Aiya... exposed liao >.<

Answer here

Minecraft, my crib! lol

OK i shall post what i have been up to for the past few weeks...

MINECRAFT!
ok so here is what my current house in minecraft looks like

at first i had to build a wooden house, but i slowly upgraded it till it is this big... the right filled with water is the irrigation for my outdoor farm. my door is one block below the sand surface so i can run away from spiders faster.
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The View from the highest point.

This is the view from my top most deck of the tower. it serves no purpose tho LOL
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My Defense System(just small pits really)

This is my primary defense from zombies, skeletons and creepers... and in the morning i just go and kill them...
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Outdoor farm....

This is my outdoor farm, there are glass parts because i do have a indoor farm below and the plants need light to grow. Plants are elevated because i dun wanna kill them by stepping on them
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Indoor farm

My first farm, underground and away from the angry monsters, a 2nd farm was expanded above this farm, the ladder leads to that outdoor farm. behind the soil blocks is a water channel... so my plants get water... anything above the plants are either air, glass, or torch to provide light. Once a chicken came in and... well my plants all died...
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Mine tunnel

left side leads to my mining spot... right side leads to my house/dwelling/castle

Ya so this is what i've been doing for the past few weeks...
Lol... kk bye hahas

Im so tired today >.<

today woke up at 9 to go sentosa... why go sentosa?
my mother's classmate's son came to singapore to study( yes more MIC ppl coming to singapore)
so basically bring them around sentosa lor. first went see see the casino area... den go see the big universal studios de ball... den go siloso beach... dig a hole in the sand... and watch in horror as the waves destroy it... den go underwater world... after so long still not much changes. den went to dolphin lagoon, see the trainers abuse animal... den go to the southern point... go there climb the towers... say hi to the ocean... den they come my house... den they took my sec3 books away~ den go eat dinner with them... den im blogging now...

Im so excited for tml! going IT fair to sell IT products? lol first time do this kind of job... hahas excited max >.<

so last week we had to go thru the 2 moderately challenging papers of Engineering Mechanics and Engineering Mathematics. i'll say they are moderatly difficult... im not looking forward to next tues... ETE(Electronic Technology and Electronics) will kill me... >.< die die die... sure die... many many many die!!!!!!! LOL YES i am that bad in that sub... will die de ley~

KK now for the tag replies...
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dawn: ooi. i tagged. VK is the BEST ever. :DDDDDD
Me: lol... lol whatever floats ur boat!!!

qwerty: k i got the website lol
qwerty: nvm lol. eh how you get the fishes? quite fun lol
Me: lol... kk... enjoy~

qy: so gd lor u can play maple for three days! i damn stress la, feel not right going on the comp T.T
Me: Gambare! dun die pl0x... after O lvl u can maple for 6 months

CHin: What PX?
Me: Its called pA xIAO!